i fell in love with my best friend. let's hope i can keep something good for me, for once.

until i turn 18 that is.
woah baby.
i recently saw streetlight and reel big fish. amazing :)
thanks to my very best friend adam. <3

i play a lot of piano these days. i've picked up my busted trumpet a few times and can still play scales but, i have alot to re-learn.
i also have my 73 year old acoustic that i strum every once in awhile but, it's mainly piano and voice these days.
love it.

still not in school, doctor's orders. everything is going to be okay.

oh yeah and...
i'm quitting this whole cigarette thing. music majors can't smoke and it's too much money. when i get a job, i kind of don't feel like spending all of my money on them especially since i can soon buy them legally. it's going to be tough, for sure but i'm sick of having to clear my throat every .5 seconds. by january i will no longer be filling my lungs with tar.

73 days until i turn 18. i've come to realize though that turning 18 really isn't toooo big.
i've been losing touch with a lot of my close friends lately. well, i guess i haven't because i still call them but i rarely receive phone calls anymore. it's really kind of agitating but, i guess i'm over it. danielle, april & i are super close now a days. our days consist of smoking cigarettes and playing guitar hero 4 which is a new addition to our activities. i'm actually going up north with danielle this weekend and i am more than excited about it. i believe a weekend away from center line would be very nice. speaking of "very nice", i find myself saying that too much along with "hardcore". enterprise still sucks but it's not that bad at the same time. it's so easy it's stupid. i guess getting there is the biggest hassle. i think i'm going away to college, after my one year of macomb that is. i'm thinking about somewhere in tennessee. possibly belmont or memphis university. i really have no idea though. either way, my major is still music and i am nervous as all hell. it's the only thing i see myself doing though and the only thing i want to do with my life. it's kind of sad that i harmonize to rap music and direct every song known to man. i guess it's not that sad though. i am indeed single now and completely content with that. we're still friends, so that's a good thing. i miss old friends and my sophomore year at center line. i wish i could go back at times but then again, not really. this entry is completely scattered but i felt it necessary to write.

ps: i need a job.

i am so ready to grow up. not necessarily to be old, but to be independent. i feel like i can't do anything for myself at this point in time. my birthday is in approximately 88 days and you better believe i am counting down the days. i need my license, a job, a car and voice lessons. it's just all a little overwhelming but it will all fall into place eventually. (or at least i'm hoping). i also wish i was graduating with the people i grew up with all of my life, but obviously that won't be happening. at this point, i actually don't care where i graduate from. if i'm graduating this year, which is what's planned and expected, i will be happy. i'm just sick of this high school bullshit. i'm so ready to start building my own life.
but annnnyways, enough complaining...

tomorrow's ryan and i's 1 month anniversary. lol. it's only exciting because it's my longest one in awhile. i hope it lasts. <3

so, i do a really horrible job at keeping this thing updated.
someone's aim profile had a livejournal link in it so i decided to see if i still remembered my password, (and i did)
so i'm updating.

it's now fall, the last time i posted was the beginning of summer.
time FLIES. i'm officially a senior.
it's exciting and nerve-racking at the same time.
i need to get the ball rolling on college stuff.

it's funny how things work out and how everything truly happens for a reason.
i have new boyfriend, which pisses a select few off but makes me very happy.
it's a vicious circle i guess you could say...
i'm the happiest i've been in awhile.

school is pretty good. enterprise is the easiest thing of my life
i have been out a week due to my high anxiety that i've always failed
to be on medication for but now realize i need to be.
that's changing next week btw.. i'm kind of excited to stop feeling like this.
and i'm pretty sure if they had a valedictorian, i would be it.
i'm getting high 90's, which isn't anything to big since the work is the easiest thing of my life.
i wouldn't expect anything less of myself.
hell, i should be getting 100's.

i turn 18 in 99 days.
that's hardcore.

it's almost officially summer & i am so ready to be tan again.
i'm playing softball and our first game is tuesday the 9th.
i guess i'm pitching, super! [not]

nothing really is thaaaat new,
just finishing my online classes.
i just can't wait to graduate.

the wings won the stanley cup today :)
i'm pumped <3
even though i never really watch hockey :/
baseball is more of my thing i guess.

but whatevs,
pEaCE!

so, people are annoying...
there's only a select few that don't annoy me but i like it that way.
i pick my friends wisely i guess you could say.

school is alright, i'm sick of it already but i gotta keep going.
i'm doing a good job I think.
the only class i'm having trouble with is geometry because math beats the shit out of me.
i pretty much suck at it.

i've been playing alot of piano lately.
i'm glad i'm getting back into it again.
in fact, i learned a new song today and it made me very happy.

oh, and i've also come to a realization:
i love people who can hear harmony and do things by ear.
my ongoing goal is to have perfect pitch... it's gunna take awhile
it will happen though.

well, i'd like to start out by first saying that...
life is amazing and i wouldn't trade mine for the world.
today was a trip dude.
it consisted so far of performing the lovely people of the warren and center line area by dancing and singing to random songs.
it was quite an adventure.
i wish the dumb video would upload on my computer, but it won't.
we got out at red lights, gas stations & not to mention we were stopped at a train for a half hour
and these 2 old ladies LOVED us.
we were a hit...
i can only imagine what tonight has in store.

life is pretty damn good.
i definitely have no complaints.
i go back to school march 10th & i am indeed excited.
i'm ready to make everything right.